What was the point in me loving you and you loving me if it was just going to end this way? Why did we meet? What was the point of the past 3 years if it was just going to be taken from me like this? I just want someone to tell me why this happened. Why couldn’t I have just met you when I was 30? Then we wouldn’t have to go through this heartbreak. Nobody really knows heartbreak until it happens to them. Now I know EXACTLY why they call it that. Because when he told me he couldn’t be with me anymore, I could literally feel my heart breaking. Like my whole world was just crashing down. Nothing else mattered. I never thought it was possible to feel so sad. I’m so mad that I let it get this way. I loved you too much. Way too much. I would drop anything just to see you or make you happy. But I was forgetting to make myself happy all along. But that’s the thing, the only time I even felt happy was when I was with you. And now that you’re gone, everything is a mess. All that effort that we both put into this relationship. Is gone. I’m so sad. I don’t think I’ve ever cried this much in my entire life. And I’m mad. I’m mad because I know it’s my own fault that I’m feeling this way. Sometimes I just wish I could disappear. I’m not ready for this. Neither are you. Why did this have to happen to us? What we had was so beautiful. And even after all this hurt. I still want you. I want you to take me back. I want to be yours, and you to me mine. I’m just a girl who found and lost love too soon.

Sometimes I just want to disappear.